Inquilino da Dor

In the cold early mornings, suicidal thoughts
I picked up the pen, the only way out I had
I've been told my songs would save lives
Sorry, but I made this one to save mine

Brother, even if I say no
The truth is that I care too much about your opinion
And I suffer a lot if I get rejected
I may sound strong with my words
But I'm so weak, I admit

If someone speaks well I almost never believe it
If someone speaks badly, I take it to heart
I need to learn how to deal with this shit before I go crazy
Or put a bullet in my head
No!

I try to organize my neurons
I was the one who said I was doing a feat with God
Today I do a feat with my Demons
I remember the phrase that Brown said: Jesus wept
Today the tenant of pain visited me
But as my grandfather used to say

Wrinkles also live in smiles
And tears also wet the eyes of joy
My greatest sadness would be
If sadness were to abandon me one day
And left me an orphan of poetry
Better to have your company than to walk around with an empty soul

The poet only writes if he has melancholy
And if God made me this way, I have no other choice
It's up to me to put on paper what God put in me
I see pain as a gift, I live it intensely
For the sky sings louder on a stormy day

I need to say everything I want to say
That tomorrow I don't even know if I'll be here
If anyone hears this sound, let me know
That I saw the darkness but survived

I need to say everything I want to say
That tomorrow I don't even know if I'll be here
If anyone hears this sound, let me know
That I saw the darkness but survived

There are days when I think about stopping everything and being at peace
I can't take it anymore
Is it worth fighting for ideals?
Go Brazza, move forward without looking back
After all, do you want to be famous or do you want to be the best at what you do?
When I started rhyming I dreamed of changing the world
Give back some of the privilege that life gave me
Today I don't even know if I dreamed too much or if deep down
I'm just taking up space from someone who needs it much more than I do
If I didn't rap, what would I do?

Whatnot
But you don't have to be too smart
To know that the truth is that
Our society has already been designed
For a guy like me to work out
It's easy to rap like this
Coming from where I came from
If the television tells me yes
If the police don't file a report with me
If in the end, the guys who die
Mistaken for bandits are never the same as me
I am heir to a past that I cannot escape
I didn't choose it, but at least rap made me evolve
Deconstruct

Access places and ideals that I would not be able to reach alone
And what society separated, I saw rap unite
In a subway station, there in a free circle
And that's when I stopped to reflect
Wow, imagine if all of Brazil was like this!
Maybe this is just another utopia that rap made me believe in
A utopia that will never come to be
But you want to know just why a dream is impossible
That's no reason not to want it
Be the change you want to see
And if my dream dies, I hope it gains wings
And may it be reborn in the heart of another boy
Who one day listened to my rap
And he dreamed the same dream as Fabio Brazza

I need to say everything I want to say
That tomorrow I don't even know if I'll be here
If anyone hears this sound, let me know
That I saw the darkness but survived

I need to say everything I want to say
That tomorrow I don't even know if I'll be here
If anyone hears this sound, let me know
That I saw the darkness but survived