Inquilino da Dor

In the cold early mornings, suicidal thoughts
I took the pen, the only way out I had
I've been told that my songs would save lives
Sorry, but this one I made to save mine

Brother, even if I say I don't
The truth is I care too much about your opinion
And suffer too much if there's rejection
I may seem strong with my words
But, I'm so weak, I admit

If someone speaks well, I hardly believe
If someone speaks ill, I take it to heart
I need to learn to deal with this shit before I go crazy
Or put a bullet in my head

I try to organize my neurons
Me, who used to say I did a feat with God
Today I do a feat with my Demons
I remember the phrase Brown said: Jesus wept
Today the tenant of pain visited me
But as my grandpa used to say

Wrinkles also live in smiles
And tears also wet eyes with joy
My greatest sadness would be
If sadness left me one day
And left me orphan of poetry
Rather your company than walking with an empty soul

And that the poet only wields the pen if he has melancholy
And if God made me this way, I have no other choice
It's up to me to put on paper what God put in me
I see pain as a gift, I live it intensely
For heaven sings louder on stormy days

I need to say everything I want to say
That tomorrow I don't even know if I'm here
If someone listens to me, this sound is to warn
That I saw the darkness but survived

I need to say everything I want to say
That tomorrow I don't even know if I'm here
If someone listens to me, this sound is to warn
That I saw the darkness but survived

There are days I think about stopping everything and being at peace
I can't take it anymore
Is it worth fighting for ideals?
Go Brazza, move forward without looking back
After all, do you want to be famous or do you want to be the best at what you do?
When I started rhyming, I dreamed of changing the world
Giving back a little of the privilege life gave me
Today I don't even know if I dreamed too much or if deep down
I'm just taking up space from someone who needs it more than me
If I didn't do rap, what would I do?

I don't know
But you don't need to be very smart
To know that the truth is
Our society was already designed
For a guy like me to succeed
It's easy to do rap like this
Coming from where I come from
If the TV tells me yes
If the police doesn't file a report on me
If in the end, the guys who die
Mistaken for criminals are never like me
I'm heir to a past I can't escape
I didn't choose, but at least rap made me evolve
Deconstruct

Access places and ideals that I couldn't reach alone
And what society separated, I saw rap unite
In a subway station, there in a freestyle circle
And that's when I stopped to reflect
Man, imagine if all of Brazil were like this!
Maybe this is just another utopia that rap made me believe
A utopia that will never come to be
But you know what just because a dream is impossible
That's no reason not to want it
Be the change you want to see
And if my dream dies, I hope it grows wings
And can be reborn in the heart of another kid
Who one day listened to my rap
And dreamed the same dream as Fabio Brazza

I need to say everything I want to say
That tomorrow I don't even know if I'm here
If someone listens to me, this sound is to warn
That I saw the darkness but survived

I need to say everything I want to say
That tomorrow I don't even know if I'm here
If someone listens to me, this sound is to warn
That I saw the darkness but survived