Sin Sendero

You know well that I came to look for you
Looking at the ceiling with fear that you might reject me
I've pretended to love several people seeking to find myself
Hurting is like a gift and therefore I went to find you

New paragraph, I bury those memories
That's why I ended up alone, they say I'm not quite sane
My family says every day that I'm drifting away from them
No one can understand such a complex guy

Few saw me from below
From scratch lying on a median strip
With a rag and no path
You think God abandons you, but that's His will
I'm not proud, but that's the truth

I wanted to be a bodybuilder, didn't have money at that age
I was a Window Shopper watching from the window
Like Curtis' scene watching the new Nikes
I rap out of respect, not for likes

Deep in it again, I saw death
Knocking on my door saying I want to see you
Tired of smiling, of pretending I'm strong
I don't know if tomorrow will be the day I don't wake up

And leave my family, biting my lips
Be it a chat at the table, a tear, a memory
Why do you always value everything on the verge of losing it?
Love, I left you a message, I hope you can read it

You who can heal me
And take away the pain
Take away this feeling that I can't stand my body
Prefer to be dead

You who can heal me
Don't let go of me, Father God
The illness invaded me, but I'm a warrior
Health is all I want

I thought I was the owner of the orchestra and was just an instrument
You sin of pride and believe your own argument
As I walked under the Sun, I didn't see the storm from afar
And I hit rock bottom, I've never liked going slow

I didn't see the signs because even God warns about that
I feel my mother's hands caressing me
Like when I was a child and I was given a gift
The mistake I made was having it and not appreciating it

Wanting to turn back time, but I can't
Wanting to see the future, but I can't
Impatient, anxious, three days without sleep
I cure my anxiety by writing

I sit on the edge of the bed, three in the morning
I can't walk, this pain accompanies me
We like what harms, look, there's poison in the blood
The love I once had for you is the least

Times are not good, but firm
What else can hurt me now?
In front of the mirror, I forgot how to smile at myself
And tell myself you can, one day will be different
I feel like I'm in a damn maze

God gave me one day to the next
Everything changed for us
We were so full up there and now broken
But well, that's life or at least that's what they say
What shapes you will always be the gray days

You who can heal me
And take away the pain
Take away this feeling that I can't stand my body
Prefer to be dead

You who can heal me
Don't let go of me, Father God
The illness invaded me, but I'm a warrior
Health is all I want