Noches En Vigilia (feat. Nadal015)

A child is a being born free
And gradually conditioned through fear, domesticated
I enter the church and the candles are lit
On the verge of collapse, on the verge of suicide
I enjoy the pain, walk on glass
The love for you became my martyrdom

There's no vaccine to cure this poison
It runs through my blood, the dogs are hungry
They've put me in a cage with wires
Only the queen bees take care of the swarm

I can breathe, but I don't feel alive
I can forgive, but I never forget
I look into your eyes, only see betrayal
The thief thinks everyone is like him

Strange childhood, there were screams at home
Psychologists, trauma, therapy sessions
Now I know where so much anger comes from
We spent our savings on chemotherapy

I spoke with the evil one and sold my soul
Made a sacrifice at dawn
When you walk alone, watch your back
If you encounter wolves, you can't lose your calm

They want revenge
When hunger suffocates, when the cold tightens
I'm collecting a puzzle of incomplete figures
But still feel my soul has cracks

Hatred and betrayal always went hand in hand
I couldn't distinguish a friend from a brother
The apple is rotten with worms
You shall never take the name of your God in vain

This is Europe, 2021
The coronavirus has taken more than one
I'm praying and fasting
Hope for humanity has vanished like smoke

Tell me, what do I have to do?
Tell me, what do I have to do?

I leave the church with a cigarette in my mouth
I meet the devil for a couple of drinks
The coke has taken half the troop
Fernandito, our name everywhere

Dramas, fear, desires, family
Anxious, cautious, sleepless nights
Addicted to that poison of yours that so enslaves me
It burns and locks me in the land of delights

Forbidden temptations, inverted crosses
If you give up, life is more fun
With a smile on your face and a split lip
You entered my game without knowing there's no way out

Money and health, demon of the street
Everything was in gaps, déjà vu hour
With your demons drinking vermouth
Dancing in the rain in the light of the moon

I have no voice left, no more doubts
I was never with God, but I was with Judas
I don't want your love anymore, don't want your help
Now I only want myself, the rest I don't give a damn

I don't know what time is anymore, I'll reach madness
Since I have no heart, the nights are darker
My face distorts due to bitterness
Living with anxiety that traps and tortures me

I'm addicted to her sweetness and she to my mischief
We live strange stages, tough times come
Shine in the eyes, honey in the corners of the mouth
Happiness on the run

The dogs are hungry, hate and thirst for blood
Since childhood, they dreamed of being great
Depressions, diazepams, and orfidals
Inside you see chaos, no northern lights

Tell me, what do I have to do?
I saw the fruit and had to bite (yeah)
Tell me, what do I have to do?
You promised me it wouldn't hurt when I did it (no)

Tell me, what do I have to do?
You gave me wings to see myself fall (yeah)
Tell me, what do I have to do?
If I don't trust in God or Lucifer (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah), yeah

Tell me, what do I have to do? (yeah)
I want to go back, go back, go back, yeah (yeah)
Tell me, what do I have to do? (haha)
If I don't know if to be or not to be, yeah (no)

Tell me, what do I have to do? (yeah)
If I have to die and be born again, yeah (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Tell me, what do I have to do?
If I can't differentiate between good and evil