Arrependimento

Why do the ones we love always leave
Why when they leave they don't warn when the time comes
It hurts, it gnaws, because they are far far away
Very far where we can't see them
Touch them feel them and much less have them

The pain is great inside my heart pha
My son died and not long ago he was here
It was instantaneous, I don't know how it happened pha
My son was born and soon died
Nine months in my belly I carried him for
In the end this tragedy happened
God tell me what I'm going to do with

His name
His clothes
His room
His toys
His father should I wait for him
Him! Him! He was innocent
I stopped my life to wait for him

My dear son where are you
Come back to mommy that's fair
I won't smoke or drink I swear
I promise this if you come back to the world
Is this a consequence of my past
For getting involved with my brother-in-law
It's not possible God hasn't forgotten this
Or is He punishing me for another reason

The first pregnancy I aborted
The second pregnancy I also aborted
Forgive me, at the time I didn't think
I thought it was nothing when I analyzed

My parents talked and warned me
I listened ignored and now I'm here
I want a child I tried and couldn't
I'm sorry I lost happiness

I've been married for 12 years
And got pregnant after 4 years
Soon I lost my son after 3 years
My husband and I confirmed each other
We lived happily and planned fully
Plans were well made to avoid harm
But my husband died after 2 years
Everything went wrong including the plans

Before they said it was destiny that wanted it that way
In time I confirmed and didn't argue
Because of my silence I lost my husband
After all what does this destiny want from me (what... wants from me)
Does it want me to stay like this
Suffering like this
And slowly dying like this
But I admitted the mistakes I made
I deserve to be forgiven I...

I just know that I regret
For everything I've done
As soon as I got married as soon as I got married
I lost my husband
Later I lost my children
I want to start everything seriously
Don't tell me no no noo he

I need you, why did you go
The emptiness you left didn't fill
Your place is here close to me
But you didn't understand you abandoned me

But you were right I didn't have time for you
I only thought about chilling
Yes I remember well
Just seeing a party I didn't waste time

I ruined my life just to live moments, moments
And moments without my husband
While he was waiting for me

I was with friends
Actually they were some individuals
But we both had
the same vices

I know I did something that shouldn't be done
But now that I know I promise I won't do it again
I missed the chance to give a hand to my parents
Moving forward is not easy for those who are far behind

Ha byala ha byi yakhi byo hohlota
Believe, put your feet on the ground
We are in Mozambique
Don't want to live the dream without realizing it first
Because in the good part of the dream someone will wake you up

I ignored the advice of those who gave me life
Now I feel alone and regretful
Behind suffering
Is where it's hidden
Looking for a way to recycle my life