No Puedo Ni Respirar

So many times I tell myself no
I fall asleep waiting for answers that won't come
I hear my own voice from deep inside
I can't even breathe

I've overcome all my insecurities
It's hard to believe I don't have the strength now
I've endured, I've seen so much, and I'm still here
Fighting to breathe

And I'm scared to think about what comes next
I'm scared to hope for something I'll never see
I'm scared of who I think I am
I dive into the water and sink in my insecurity

And it scares me because I've never liked to lose
And if I lose, I'm afraid of what I won't have
And if I have it, I don't know how to take care of it
And I can't even breathe

From so many cracks I can't hide
If I accept every fear, I accept every weakness
It's me who needs to understand my own voice
That tells me to breathe already

I feel weak, I can't anchor myself
I try, but I shouldn't even try
I'm tired of blocking my goals
It's time to breathe

To open my eyes and see that everything is behind me now
That I've overcome my pride and my insecurity
To accept it all at once
That I can take a misstep to move forward

And everything flows on a canvas where I can see
So many demons my mind has wanted to silence
Because if I accept myself, I don't know how to take care of me
And I can't even breathe

I need to get out of my mind
I don't know how I'll manage without you
It's over, it's the end
Of the fear of fearing

And it scares me because I've never liked to lose
And if I lose, I'm afraid of what I won't have
And if I have it, I don't know how to take care of it
But finally, I can breathe