No Puedo Ni Respirar

So many times I tell myself no
I fall asleep waiting for no answers
I listen to my own voice from within
I can't even breathe

I have overcome all insecurity
It's hard for me to believe I have no strength now
I have endured, I have seen so much, and I'm still here
Fighting to breathe

And I'm afraid to think about what comes next
I'm afraid to wait for something I'll never see
I'm afraid of what I believe to be
I throw myself into the water and sink in my insecurity

And it scares me because I've never liked to lose
And if I lose, I'm afraid of what I won't have
And if I have it, I don't know how to take care of it
And I can't even breathe

From many cracks I can't hide
If I accept every fear, I accept every weakness
It's me who must understand my own voice
That already asks me to breathe

I feel weak, I can't anchor myself
I try, but I must not try
I'm tired of obstructing my goal
It's time to breathe

To open my eyes to see that everything is already behind
That I have overcome my pride and my insecurity
To accept everything at once
That I can take a wrong step to continue

And everything flows on a full canvas to look at
So many demons that my mind has wanted to silence
Because if I accept myself, I don't know how to take care of myself
And I can't even breathe

I must now leave my mind

It's over, it's the end
Of the fear of fearing

And it scares me because I've never liked to lose
And if I lose, I'm afraid of what I won't have
And if I have it, I don't know how to take care of it
But finally I can breathe