No Puedo Ni Respirar

So many times I tell myself no
I fall asleep waiting for no answers
I hear my own voice from within
I can't even breathe

I've overcome all insecurity
It's hard for me to believe I have no strength now
I've endured, I've seen so much, and I'm still here
Fighting to breathe

And I'm scared to think about what comes next
I'm scared to wait for something I'll never see
I'm scared of what I believe to be
I jump in the water and sink in my insecurity

And it scares me because I've never liked losing
And if I lose, I'm afraid of what I won't have
And if I have it, I don't know how to take care of it
And I can't even breathe

From many cracks I can't hide
If I accept every fear, I accept every weakness
It's me who must understand my own voice
That asks me to breathe already

I feel weak, I can't anchor myself
I try but I must not try
I'm tired of obstructing my goal
It's time to breathe

To open my eyes to see that everything is already behind
That I've overcome my pride and my insecurity
To accept everything at once
That I can take a misstep to continue

And everything flows on a full canvas to look at
So many demons my mind has wanted to silence
Because if I accept myself, I don't know how to take care of myself
And I can't even breathe

I must get out of my mind
I don't know how I'll manage without you
It's over, it's the end
Of the fear of fearing

And it scares me because I've never liked losing
And if I lose, I'm afraid of what I won't have
And if I have it, I don't know how to take care of it
But finally, I can breathe