J'aurais Voulu

Mouth half open
She was smiling at you
She seemed offered
To all those who passed by
I found her too beautiful
I wish I could have been her
So that your eyes would look at me like they looked at her

Lying on the beach
Her long hair undone
Was she a mirage?
That suddenly blinded you
I found her too beautiful
I wish I could have been her
So that you would want me like you wanted her

Would I have done the same, in your place?
Would I have left everything behind in your place?

Leaning against you
Happy and consenting
Taking you away from me
Distant, indifferent
I found her too beautiful
I wish I could have been her
To make you suffer as much as I suffered then
To make you suffer as much as I still suffer