La mia Estate con Te

I wish I could send you to hell
with my useless problems
that are here
in the waiting room of my mind.
They hinder my quiet
survival.

Give me time to decide
if it's worth having your arms,
your face, against my chest
and walk alone,
act as if you weren't there
and throw away some love,
pretend not to care.

As if
this summer with you
my summer with you
didn't matter anymore
didn't suffice anymore
didn't come back anymore.

As if
my summer with you
my life with you
no, never was
never existed
never lived.

Those car rides
on impassable paths,
uncontainable laughter
and endless silences,
made me freer
like when under the trees
we went down to make love, us.

And the senses ignited
and the thoughts faded,
all things
that I experienced, I,
I can't deny them, I,
don't try
to convince myself.

As if
this summer with you
my life with you
didn't matter anymore
no, never was
never existed
never lived.