Este Soy Yo

This is me, this is me
Product of the infinite grace of the Lord
This is me, this is me
Smiles that learned to emerge in pain
This is me, this is me
Product of love that overcomes my resentment
This is me, this is me
This is me

A kid they thought wouldn't leave school
With notebook in hand, listening to Cosculluela
I wanted to be like that, I wanted attention
So that when I went to places, I felt the pressure
But the reality in me was depression
I didn't understand the reason for the separation
My parents' divorce created confusion
The people I called the most broke their relationship
In an instant everything changed, came out of nowhere
It didn't make sense to split every weekend

One week with dad and one with mom
But the reality is that I felt very alone

I felt rebellious and it wasn't easy, dad
I had to vent with paper and pencil
People didn't understand why the heck I was so volatile
I didn't have a stable home, I was a portable child
I made new friends, created new habits
Downloaded new music and learned new words
My example was the rappers I listened to
I admired them so much that I spoke like they did
In my adolescence I tried marijuana
It was my decision, but the motivation came from my buddies
I wanted to fill myself up and always hesitated
I tried to escape but I never did and

This is me, this is me
Product of the infinite grace of the Lord
This is me, this is me
Smiles that learned to emerge in pain
This is me, this is me
This is me, this is me
A kid who now opens his heart to you
This is me

I got a girlfriend
Thought she was the solution
After several months we broke up
Depression returned, addiction continued
I lost my hope in love
So I started going to church
And didn't miss a service
But in my mind there was still inconsistency
Serving the Lord, I still had that addiction to pornography
It affected my heart, I

Felt I wasn't fit to be a Christian
Felt I was useless, that everything was in vain
After a year in church, I left that path
I returned to the street, tried pills and increased the grams
Started writing songs inciting evil
But what my heart needed was mercy
I justified myself in the truth
It was my way of escaping that reality
And in the darkest moment of my life
I felt a light offering me a way out
And I didn't understand how the heck I could be loved
Even being so young
My heart was already very bad
I failed my parents, I failed God
I failed myself and failed in love
I wasn't even capable of loving myself
No one knows how many times I tried to kill myself

But a light pierced my darkness
A hope offered me another chance
I couldn't escape
From that immense goodness
His name is Christ
He made the impossible, reality

And now I am free
This is me
A product of the infinite grace of the Lord
This is me, this is me
Smiles that learned to emerge in pain
This is me, this is me
Product of love that overcomes my resentment
This is me, this is me
This is me

Gabriel