Tóxico

I have your suitcase open
And if I haven't touched it yet
It's because I like to think that's where you left it
I'm at the door waiting for you
And if I haven't closed it yet
It's because I like to think
That's where you entered
It's past five
And I've been sitting here since two
Thinking about my things
And organizing yours
I know the last words were kind of harsh
And that didn't leave us much room for apologies
I don't even know what to do
If I should move on or call
To say what I still hope will happen
Or argue about everything you said
That when it comes to love, the cure is not in the illness
Because every time you came back
You admitted you were wrong
And asked for a lot of calm and patience
I said I forgave you
But seeing that you haven't changed
That led me to a state of dementia
Today I called my doctor

I'm serious
I want to build an empire
And this way it won't work
Because I live in the middle
Between feeling good, not seeing you
And missing having you around
It's hard when I think about what I did
Still not knowing how to position myself
Even when you told me that blame is immeasurable
But I know that if it were measurable, we would both be wrong
The problem isn't that you moved on
But the timing in which you did it
Because we talked about marriage and children
And you meet a guy
And a week later you already assume him as the chosen one to everyone
It hadn't even been a month
And I know life is yours
But dealing with all this was fucked up
Because finding someone who makes you happy
Doesn't have to turn me into a toxic and abusive person

See you on the other side
See you on the other side

I'm sitting at the crime scene
Where I died yesterday
When we accepted that the two of us no longer worked
I will have you forever drawn in me
More in my way of acting
Than in the damn tattoo
And you know that, girl
I grew up with you
I will never change
I'm still the same guy
You met when you were 15
I'm still the same Henrique
That you fell in love with
Today I called my doctor
I'm serious
I want to build an empire
And this way it won't work

Every day I wake up and it's a mystery
At what time will I break and the anxiety will start
Ten in the morning and I'm awake, barely slept
I was in the studio until late working on myself
Trying to get rid of the urge to call you
But I woke up in the same state and started on this beat
I'm wearing the sweater you gave me
Before we broke up and I never wore again
I don't know if it was just the longing
But not having you by my side
Has been strange
I'm not doing well
Today I woke up and wanted to occupy my life
Without changing the routine
I went shopping without even knowing, nah
Really knew well what I wanted
If I wore new clothes or boost my self-esteem (huh)
My friends are telling me I'm not okay
The other day the expression was like a zombie
And I heard, to be honest I just didn't respond
Because after all, that's what I've been feeling
I go out to live but I don't live anything
I go out to socialize and time doesn't pass
I feel dead inside, but I'm still here
So I'll just live the moment until I get over it
I called my grandmothers
Just to hear that voice
Because, in fact, I'm not well and need calm
I've always been the guy who thinks twice
Never the one who acts in the moment, I always acted with my soul
I apologize to everyone
If this sound is different
Or if I don't have much time
But I can't
Stay here talking about my feelings
Three minutes is enough
A big kiss from Henrique

See you on the other side
See you on the other side