Calm Envy

The song 'Calm Envy' by the GazettE delves into the complex emotions of love, loss, and longing. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a relationship marred by unfulfilled promises and lingering doubts. The opening lines, '降りしきる雨の音に沈みそうな / その約束は誰の夢で誰のための夢だろう' (The sound of the pouring rain seems to drown me / Whose dream is that promise for, and for whom?), set a melancholic tone, suggesting a sense of drowning in unkept promises and questioning the purpose behind them.

The recurring lines 'I want to see all of you, I want to love all of you' reflect a deep yearning for complete connection and understanding, yet there's an underlying sense of disillusionment. The mention of '知らない香り' (unknown scent) on the partner's hand hints at infidelity or emotional distance, further complicating the narrator's feelings. This duality of wanting to love fully while grappling with betrayal is a central theme in the song.

The chorus, '言葉よりも深く愛してくれなら / 目の前にいるあなただけを信じていける' (If you love me deeper than words / I can believe only in you who is in front of me), underscores the desire for a love that transcends words, a love that can heal the wounds of the past. However, the repeated references to '空白' (void) and the plea to not smile anymore in front of the narrator reveal a profound pain and a struggle to move on from past hurts. The song concludes with a poignant farewell, '帰らない日々を愛した人よ' (To the person who loved the days that won't return), encapsulating the sorrow of loving someone who is no longer present, either physically or emotionally.

'Calm Envy' is a powerful exploration of the fragility of human connections and the enduring impact of love and loss. The GazettE's evocative lyrics and haunting melodies create a deeply emotional experience that resonates with anyone who has grappled with the complexities of relationships.