Calm Envy

Sinking into the sound of the pouring rain
Whose dream is that promise for and whose dream is it

I want to see all of you, I want to love all of you
You're acting strange

The hand that holds mine always carries an unknown scent
I want to see all of you, I want to love all of you
Even though I can breathe properly, I feel like I'm falling apart

If you can love me deeper than words
I can believe in only you in front of me
Every time I touch the past you suddenly showed, it crumbles
Tears well up in the unfilled void

Even if I seek solace, the you next to me seems to fade away from within

I want to see all of you, I want to love all of you
Drowning in a smile is the answer
You don't love, the everyday shadow when it was lost
I carry it so much that it can't be erased

If the words I threw at you can love me
I can believe in only you in front of me
It hurts every time I touch the past you suddenly showed
I want to love even the empty space without me
I wipe away the tears so you won't notice
Don't laugh in front of me anymore

Rather than hiding goodbye between us
I want to cry goodbye together
I want you to forget rather than reminisce
And leave me in emptiness
Don't chase after the past days anymore

Don't leave me anymore
At least
Don't leave me with a goodbye
Extinguish my faint warmth like a cigarette

To the one who loved the days that won't return