Bellísimo

Today I signed my own sentence
Loneliness over the phone
You said: Well, if you want
Goodbye, take care

Your icy goodbye hit me
Like a stone tied in my gut
Our game is over now
Your bitter mockery

Why have I wasted so much time
Thinking of you at every turn
Why did I think I mattered
When in the end, I was just a clown
Why did I open my mind to you
And confess what I feel inside
I jumped flying to the Moon
Made you feel pleasure like no one else
You’d ask me and I’d stay quiet
It made me sad while you just slept
And in the mirror day by day
I kept telling myself you loved me
I gave you everything like a fool
Always believing I was the only one
You smiled at me and said that

I’m beautiful
I’m beautiful
Fuck my body
If my soul is alone

Now in the shadows of my body
Where my words drown
I feel like the ugliest being on earth
That’s how I feel

Yeah, you wanted me for my body
To show me off and parade me
Like a doll that walks alone
Like a ridiculous banner
And meanwhile my smile
Was flying away to your eyes
I’d ask you if you loved me
And you treated me like a fool
You smiled at me and said that

I’m beautiful
I’m beautiful
Fuck my body
If my soul is alone