Bipolar

Why so hard, your sacrifice
To give up on some things
There's no commitment and I'm always silent
I end up giving in and never say no

Those on the outside always notice
That I've missed out on so many things
I distanced myself from the few friends I had
And my life stopped because of you

I've done everything for nothing
And you never tried to understand me
You always laugh at everything, make jokes
Don't even try to mature

You always go silent out of stubbornness
Ignore me when I try to demand
Come with your cynicism, hug me
But the fights can't be avoided

You get in your car, accelerate and leave
Break the phone, so I won't call anymore
You leave shouting that you won't come back
That I'm only good for stressing you out

The next morning you ask to see me
Cry saying you love me, I don't know what to do
Always with this bipolar way
I don't know how long I can take
I'm undecided, wanting you, but now I want peace