Tiritas de Alambre

And I don't cry just to cry...
My soul will explode...

Look at me, I observe myself in my room,
in this sea of tears with this boat I depart to a
place where I can change my soul with the wind
I thought about leaving everything, I can't take it anymore, I feel it...

One gray day I looked at my white face in the mirror,
I noticed how it darkened and the reflection cried
A scream of despair in which I wait so much and nothing
My pencil ties a knot; I draw myself hanged

Every moment is slower every time
and when it hurts so much to breathe time doesn't pass,
nothing happens, feeling has become null,
I delve into my interior in the pain today I only find knots

I doubt that my soul will tie with more strength
by marking everything on my body and raising my palms
to surrender, at this point it's easier to sink
no matter how hard you try you don't know what to tell me

To cheer me up nothing can make me smile anymore
I know that escaping this way is worse than running away
I swear this is not the only thing I set out to achieve

All the mistakes that have made me fall,
I feel like I don't have the strength to win
this battle that overwhelms my heart
I know that by doing what I think I will lose my mind

The dismay embitters me, I cry uncontrollably
this room is so dark that I can't see the sun
loneliness is what invades me, hoisting dreams
my soul escaped from the body and no longer has an owner.

And I don't cry just to cry, I feel that if I don't do it
my soul will explode
into a thousand pieces that shatter with the light
I have thought about all this and my being nailed my cross.

Look at yourself well, I observe you in your room,
with so much sea of tears you'll have plenty
and I don't get tired of repeating the same thing,
if you don't love yourself, neither will the abyss

That you have created inside... you're not wrong
with so many hits on you, you must learn the lesson
It hurts me more than you all the pain
keep letting yourself down so much and you'll lose your color

Don't forget despite everything the good moments
I know the bad ones will follow you after many attempts
to lift your head, sadness weighs more
when with one hand you write, with the other you pray

I saw you evading yourself by hurting yourself
think about it when you see yourself lying in the bathroom
cuts on your wrists spill blood
treat your wounds with wire band-aids

I understand your pain, your heart hurts,
I give you my strength to face the situation
it's not indifference, you don't understand it
I will thread consciously the thread you hang on

And what do you expect, this is nothing new
here your feelings are the only thing I move,
you don't fight, no one fights,
it's easier to give up than to wait for this to change

It's a life and maybe too many eras,
don't throw in the towel just because you had a few bad times,
share your smile with every person,
if it fades, open your heart and react...