Jishou Mushoku ( Self Inflicted Achromatic)

Hatsune Miku's 'Jishou Mushoku (Self Inflicted Achromatic)' delves into the profound and often dark themes of self-worth, existentialism, and the impact of one's existence on the world. The song's lyrics express a deep sense of self-doubt and a longing for validation, as the protagonist grapples with their identity and the desire to be someone else. The opening lines, '君のような人になりたいな / 僕らしい人になりたいな' (I want to be like you / I want to be someone like me), set the tone for this internal conflict, questioning whether conforming to others' expectations would truly reflect their authentic self.

The song further explores the protagonist's feelings of insignificance and the belief that their existence causes more harm than good. Lines like 'こんな僕が生きてるだけで / 何万人の人が悲しんで' (Just by me being alive / Thousands of people are sad) and 'こんな僕が消えちゃうだけで / 何億人の人が喜んで' (Just by me disappearing / Billions of people would be happy) highlight a deep-seated sense of worthlessness and the desire for non-existence. This stark portrayal of self-loathing and the wish to disappear reflects a struggle with mental health issues, particularly depression and suicidal thoughts.

Despite the heavy themes, there is a glimmer of hope and connection in the song. The lines 'なんで君はそんなに笑うの / 君はそんな笑顔じゃ' (Why do you smile so much / With that smile of yours) suggest that the protagonist finds solace in someone else's happiness, even if they cannot see their own worth. This juxtaposition of despair and the faint light of human connection adds depth to the narrative, making it a poignant reflection on the complexities of human emotions and the search for meaning in life.