Shippaisaku Shoujo

Ah, look, I messed up again, how many times? What number is this?
Hey, look, I'm standing here blocked, with scars that just won’t fade away.
Ah, look, I just played it off again, you’re so good at pretending not to see.
No matter what they say, look, nobody wants me anyway.

I want to be exposed, it hurts.
I want to act tough, it hurts.
I want to breathe my last, it really hurts.

They say I’m a failure, I don’t need this shit, it’s too much to handle.
No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, it feels like a joke.
Love, love, I just want to be loved, so I fake it,
Maybe if I smile more, it’ll be alright.

Ah, look, I scraped myself again, how many times? What number is this?
Hey, look, even if I hide it, the cracks show my trauma.
Ah, look, I swallowed it again, you’re so good at putting on that calm face.
No matter what they say, look, I’m mocked and covered in bruises.

Swaying in this suffocating feeling,
Dizzy from this sense of isolation,
I’m gasping for air, feeling so dry.

They say I’m a failure, I don’t need this shit, it’s pointless.
No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, it feels like a waste.
I just want to know the meaning of being born,
Maybe if I smile more naturally, it’ll be alright.

God, if I could be reborn,
I hope I can be a child who is loved.
Let the heartbeat that has stopped be a lullaby,
Surely, surely tomorrow I can smile, right?

Goodnight to all these mistakes.