I'd Rather Overdose (feat. Mod Sun)

Can't let go
I can't let you go
I try, but I always know
I wish you were holding me close
Can't be without you, I'd rather overdose

When you're messed up on those pills, you can't hear me cry
Without them, you're sick and we both know why
Pint after pint till the well runs dry
If only you loved me like you love getting high

I can't let you go
I try, but I always know
I wish you were holding me close
Can't be without you, I'd rather overdose

Messed up, can't slow down
Won't come down, don't know how
My dad's gone, my mom's proud
Got friends stuck in our hometown
My bank account's got zeros
I'm supposed to be the hero
But here I am, still fucking up
I'll drink my weight in beer though, I
Know that you hate me and I hate me too
I can't get over what I did to you
You tried to help me and it wasn't getting through
I hope that you miss me 'cause I miss you too

But I can't let you go
I try, but I always know
I wish you were holding me close
Can't be without you, I'd rather overdose

It was May 11th, 2019
I stayed up for a week
All these drugs won't let me sleep
I did one last line until both my eyes closed
I said one last goodbye and then I overdosed

They found me laid out on my bathroom floor
I knew I couldn't live life like this anymore
Been sober five years since the day I almost died
I finally love myself the way I loved getting high

But I can't let you go
I try, but I always know
I wish you were holding me close
Can't be without you, I'd rather overdose