Honto No Watashi

The real me
Even though you don't know
Don't act like you understand
Don't show me that smile

Even if you're close, even if we're always together
Annoyed inside without understanding
So I can get through another day
Before I knew it, I had become such an unpleasant person

Is there someone who will love
The real me?

Sorry I'm not a good girl
Sneaky
Deceiving
Breaking
Unable to meet expectations

Sorry for being a failure
Weak
Pathetic
Rotting
Can't show my burning passion

But why are you still kind?

Different lives between family and home
Surely we can't understand everything
The me who lies, the me who acts
No matter who sees, I'm a terrible person

If you knew the real me
Would you surely abandon me?

Sorry I'm not a good girl
Lying down
Lashing out
Scaring
Causing me trouble

Sorry for being a failure
Pretending to be strong
Surviving
Tainting the heart I received
But why are you still kind?

There's no clear feeling in my heart yet
But if it happens, will you be happy?
Ah

Sorry for not being cute
Hating my appearance and personality
To the point where I don't even want to look in the mirror

Don't bother with me
Talking
Leave me alone
Venting
Even the words I shouldn't say

But why are you still warm?

Sorry I'm not a good girl
Sneaky
Deceiving
Breaking
Unable to meet expectations

Sorry for being a failure
Weak
Pathetic
Rotting
Can't show my burning passion

But why are you still kind?

Embracing every part of me
There was a big love