Calla Sombrerero

I feel it repeats, I notice the same pain
That complicated summer when I said goodbye to you
And now here we are trying to make things better
We don't deserve this, neither of us

My heart was bleeding, trapped, and I couldn't think anymore
I pushed it away for a while, my love, it had to happen
Frozen bodies, blocked, no one knew how to swim here
I beat so hard for you
I stopped breathing

I know what I want the most is to feel your hugs
For you, I am reproaches, for me, you are lethargy
I wish you could see yourself through my eyes and accept yourself
Now I'm far away on the bathroom floor crying

I think about jumping
Nothing makes sense anymore
The breeze moves my memories and they're all about you
I wanted to think that by distancing myself I wouldn't be lost anymore
And the truth is, without you, I have no more heartbeats

I gave you a galaxy for your neck
And some verses that lived engraved in a tale
So you could feel close what I felt and what I feel
That's why that amulet shone

Eyes of time, I miss you
I want to kiss your lips, even if I say no
I know it's hard and you know this is a two-way street
To unite this broken heart

Now I just want to see you
Think about kissing your forehead
Interlace my hands with you
Hug you around the waist, united

I gave you the heart of a child, I dreamed of having you
There were more buts every time, I became so inert
I'm dying waiting and I don't know if it's worth anything
(So shut up, Mad Hatter, she doesn't want to see you anymore)

I remember that night two years ago
A kiss on the forehead and two strangers
The mad hatter, with Alice in his arms
A love potion to heal this damage
Rejection

Lost looks and smiles in the room
Kisses that brought forth another dimension
I never lost the passion, I never had that intention
And now we're far apart, turned into pieces

Call me, I'm screwed and losing weight
The dark circles are more noticeable from afar
I look at my phone, waiting for you to text me, but they don't come
The messages are imaginations that imprison me

I don't know where you are now
I've been dead in this blender for weeks
All your photos hurt, I feel it's time
To learn to be okay inside
I'm dying, I can't take it anymore

Eyes of time, I miss you
I want to kiss your lips, even if I say no
I know it's hard and you know this is a two-way street
To unite this broken heart

Now I just want to see you
Think about kissing your forehead
Interlace my hands with you
Hug you around the waist, united