Message

"Hey, have you been busy lately?" I get asked, trying to play it cool
But I laugh and say, "Not at all!" like it’s all fine
Truth is, I’m a little worried, can’t tell anyone though

"When are you free next week?" I text back after some time
And just when I think I’ll get a reply, it’s just like before
"Seriously, how much longer do I have to wait!?"
I want to say something, but I just don’t have the guts

Then time passes, and I finally get a reply to my email
"Sorry for the late response! Next week might be too busy to meet? (-.-;)"

I don’t want to show my selfish side
Even though I like you, I can’t stand not seeing you
I don’t want to look at you with doubtful eyes
"Why is this happening? Why is this happening? Why!?" I wonder
If I get mad this time, will you think about it a little more...?

"Is life really that great?" I think, three months have gone by
But my feelings have grown stronger than before
Could it be that we’re just missing each other a bit...?
I don’t want to think like that!!

Still, I’m lost in these mixed feelings, and I rewrite my email
"Honestly, I wish you’d care a bit more?!(><)!"
Awkward love slips through my fingertips?

I can only say trivial things
I miss you so much, I can’t take it anymore
I don’t need vague words of love
It’s just, it’s just simple MAGIC
I always want you to reach out to me, the KEYWORD that makes me smile

The name that lights up my phone’s sub-display
Makes my heart race
The little conversations piling up in my inbox
Are so sweet and dear, I can’t take it anymore
The secret words I finally found make me happy, a protected MESSAGE.