Más de una vez

Can you remember what I lived
what happened and I'm still not myself
They say I turned on more than one light
That I deceived you but you don't know how I am

It's almost a matter of faith,
almost a decision
that I have never made

I reached a conclusion and blinded myself
I wanted to eat it all at once
And natural gas choked me
I explained everything backwards

Yes, I was scared
and I also had a void here
that didn't let me speak

Just say what you wanted to hear,
that it would sound normal
and you could sleep without me

And now it's already past three,
I still haven't yawned
Things remain the same,
but the other way around

I'm fine now,
you know the truth
We know it's wrong,
you know I deceived you more than once.

So what? So what? So what?
What am I going to do, the story can't take it anymore