Abensonhado

Words are expensive if I'm gonna waste my breath
It's to say that I'm at peace, I'm healthy, I'm alive
Today I know I had to hit rock bottom
To take a step back and put everything in perspective
I was sedated, head buried in the pillow
In a hospital bed at some crazy hour of the night
Making excuses for the problems in my life
When the blame was solely and completely mine
On a bad path, clinging to addiction
I had everything, except my head on straight
I saw myself crossing over to the other side and
I know that if I was in deep trouble
It's 'cause I went to bed with the devil
I take a deep breath, now I'm more grown
I realized I lost myself somewhere along the way
So far from the principles I valued
And trying to hear the voice of that God I prayed to

I say
Sorry mama
I'm sorry mama
I'm sorry mama
Oh mama
Asking myself if love is only measured in kisses
I see myself throwing stones into the lake of desires
No matter how long you live, experience teaches you
To never look down
'Cause blessings come from above
I'm protected even when someone conspires
And if it was God who gave, then only God can take away
I'm at peace and resolved with what I feel
That's why I have a sound mind and a clean heart
Many want our downfall, it's legit
But I'm at peace, God knows my inner self
That in this life He blesses my brothers
To count my blessings
Two hands aren't enough
Tata, you're a brother that God gave me
I felt the loss of your old man as if it were my own
Jêpas, I'm with you if this goes sideways
When no one had faith in us
We had faith in each other
My struggle is yours
What unites us is eternal
There’s no black or white
I see beyond the skin in us
And there are no impossibles
We are inspiration for everyone
Those who pretend we are invisible
And I think of us talking about harassment
A few years back in the car outside my building
Talking about money and that fleeting fame
But today we are men, we know that's just dust
Damn, so naive and so deluded, yeah
But maybe God heard me
Today I just want to go unnoticed
Have principles, be a good dad and a good husband
I've given everything to those who never gave me change
But I learned to be grateful even with little
And tell me, how many value my principles here?
If I need, tell me, how many pray for me?
Since success has a price
If this isn't the end for me
I know this is a new beginning
Early in the morning, I thank each day
So that darkness doesn't overshadow the light that guides me
This is so much more than just making songs
Since my words
Started to change lives
And my sounds began to heal wounds
Since God blessed me
With a queen and two daughters, blessed.