capricho

I know it was your birthday
I feel silly thinking about writing to you
My sister says it’s strange
That by now I still haven’t let you go

But I keep tying up loose ends
I don’t know what I did to make you pull away like this
We never got to talk it out
You changed so suddenly and left me here

I hate being petty
But you bring out the worst in me

And I’ve wished you bad
I’m always talking shit about you
But that’s not gonna make you come back
With that, I won’t stop missing you
I know I won’t

And it’s just another whim
I’m just dreaming that you’ll ask me for forgiveness
But that’s not normal, with that, no
I’ll stop loving you
I know I won’t
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh

And you loved me to my face
Turns out behind my back you were nothing like
What you pretended to be
I was there for you when you weren’t doing well

You’re such a Pontius Pilate
You washed your hands over and over again
And I understood that what you did to me
Was to fill some void you have inside

I hate being petty
But you bring out the worst in me

And I’ve wished you bad
I’m always talking shit about you
But that’s not gonna make you come back
With that, I won’t stop missing you
I know I won’t

And it’s just another whim
I’m just dreaming that you’ll ask me for forgiveness
But that’s not normal, with that, no
I’ll stop loving you
I know I won’t

Like you told me so easily
Because of you, I’ve become less fragile
And colder on the outside
Even though hearing your name hurts
Nothing about this is free
Because of you, I’ve become
Very very skilled at not trusting anyone
And that follows me everywhere

And I’ve wished you bad
I’m always talking shit about you
Because I want to pay you back in the same coin
But I can’t stop thinking about you even if I want to

And it’s just another whim
I’m just dreaming that you’ll ask me for forgiveness
But that’s not normal, with that, no
I’ll stop loving you
I know I won’t

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh