Alas

Every time another day starts
I seem to be further away from it all
I know someday I’m gonna wake up from this
And I wonder how much of this is real

I’ve searched for myself and talked to me a thousand times
Running from your words more and more each day,
More each day, more each day...

Every time I feel sick, I look for a way not to lose my mind
Under the waves of this hell
I stay silent at sunset
And what else...
Can I make a wish if you let me scream,
It’s the way my senses flow today
I carry it with me, so well hidden.

Let me be that fire that burns inside you
I’m just trying to ignite myself, I want to feel the heat...

The heat inside my body is almost the best moment
To say goodbye...
Every time I start a new day and can’t be who I want to be...

I wonder how much of this becomes reality?
I wonder how much of this is real?
I wonder how much of this becomes reality?
More each day, more each day, it becomes real...

Just tell me how much of this becomes reality
Just tell me how much of this is real
Just tell me how much of this becomes reality
More each day, more each day, it becomes real...

And every time I start a new day and can’t be who I want to be... (I’d rather go out again)

Let me be that fire that burns inside you
I’m just trying to ignite myself, I want to feel the heat...

Every time I feel sick, I look for a way not to lose my mind
Under the wings of this winter...