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Who are you?... That I can't save myself,
Accursed doll, punishment from God,
Gale that tears apart in its fury a yesterday
Of tenderness, of love, and of faith.

Because of you my life has changed
Sacred and simple, like a prayer,
Into a barbaric horror of problems
That clogs my veins and clouds my honor.

I can't be more vile,
Nor can I be better,
Defeated by your spell
That disrupts my duty.
Because of you, to my wife
I have destroyed her life,
And all the luxury I've given you
Is the bread of my two children.
I can't react
Nor can I understand,
Lost in the storm
Of your bewitching voice...
The silk of skin that shivers me
And as it beats, it flourishes, with my downfall.

Determined to erase with a shot
Your accursed shadow that is already an obsession,
I have searched in my night for a corner to die,
But the weapon loosens in betrayal...

I don't know if I deserve this fierce disgrace
But instead, I have come to know
That it's a lie, that I won't kill myself,
Thinking of my children... I don't do it for you.