Carta De Despedida

Damn brother
And I thought I was already fine
That I was, becoming myself again
And recovering from this fucking shit

And I've fallen back
Or that's what I feel
Because I've been days without eating
Without being able to sleep

Because as soon as I fall asleep she wakes me up
How I dream about her
And waking up and knowing she's not by my side anymore
That I don't have her by my side and I can't hear her anymore
That I don't even remember her voice

And if you leave my side I only feel pain
I can't accept that you're not here anymore
Being apart maybe is the best
Although I can't sleep until 3

And you don't see, that it's fate
I would go straight to hell with you
Don't complain if it's cold for me to leave you my coat
That's the best reason

If it's not with you, it's not with anyone, you know?
And if it's with you, I'll wait for you here, okay?
If you don't take care of me, take care of yourself

So you never forget to be careful with me
I've thought about it a thousand times and I'm willing to call you
Because the cemetery is already full of cowards
I prefer to be a brave one with big wounds

Than to die with the doubt of whether I'm too late
A diamond so bright is not chipped by stones
You and me forever, don't you feel it, don't you remember?
Now hearing your name I always turn around
As if you were the only girl on the planet

I don't have any plan B
If the plans are without you, I don't care about any of them
Distance separates us, but you're in my head
And when I close my eyes I feel you a little closer

How long does the pain inside the chest last?
Because I find it hard to keep the armor intact
To try on dresses you needed my help
And I telling you: My love, they all look crazy on you

More alone than ever, more broken than whole
I don't delete our photos, I really don't dare
As if that would make everything start from 0
After deleting the photos, how do I erase the memories?

Eh
The best of life, valuing every detail, the little silly things
Like when you told me you would never change me
And in the end I found myself alone closing the wounds
Happy stories have no end
Because if they are happy they don't have to end

You taught me to love, you also taught me to hate
Although I have nothing left of the first
Hard to see how it goes, and more knowing it won't come back
If it was a goodbye, why swear to forever?
I see you like a Monday, I wait for you more than Friday

You smoked my lucky cigarette
And lucky if you find someone who loves you like me
Who takes care of you like me, who looks at you like me
And when you think you've finally found it
And have it by your side, you'll see it's not like me

The songs I used to listen to and thought were great
Now I don't even listen to them, they remind me of us
I've laid in bed, with the phone on airplane mode
Because if you don't call me I don't give a damn

If you leave my side I only feel pain
I can't accept that you're not here anymore
Being apart maybe is the best
Although I can't sleep until 3

And waking up and knowing she's not by my side
That I don't have her by my side and I can't hear her anymore
And I swear
That I would do anything to be okay with myself
And be able to move forward