Meltdown

The city lights are bright
The coldness of the ether
Can't sleep at 2 a.m.
Everything turns to rest
A lighter out of oil
Burning stomach
If everything was a lie
It would have been really good
I dreamt of choking you
In the afternoon light
Watching your slender throat convulse
With eyes that seemed about to cry

I want to jump into the nuclear reactor
Surrounded by pure light, it's beautiful
I feel like everything will be forgiven

Beyond the balcony
The sound of climbing stairs
The shadowy sky
Falling into the room through the window glass
The evening to be erased
The red of a tearful day
Slowly melting away
The world dying bit by bit
I dreamt of choking you
Curtains swaying in the spring breeze
Words spilling from dry lips
Like bubbles
I want to jump into the nuclear reactor
Vanishing into pure white memories
If I jump in, it feels like I can sleep

The ticking of the clock
The sight of the TV
Someone there but unseen
Laughter echoing, reverberating
Allegro agitato
The ringing in the ears won't stop
Allegro agitato
The ringing in the ears won't stop

I dreamt everyone disappeared
The vastness of the midnight room and the silence
Choking my chest
Making it hard to breathe

If I jump into the nuclear reactor
Surely I can disappear like falling asleep
The morning without me
Will be much better than now
All the gears will mesh
That must be the kind of world
Ah