Failure Girl

Ah, look, I made a mistake again
How many times is this? What number?
Hey, look, standing in failure
The scars that suddenly come to the surface
Ah, look, I deceived again
You're good at pretending not to see
Well, no matter what you say
No one wants me

I want to expose the pain, it hurts, it hurts
I want to pretend to be strong, it hurts, it hurts
I want to suffocate, it hurts

I'm a failure, they say
I'm not needed, they say
No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, it's all a lie
I want to be loved, so I lie
Maybe I should just smile more

Ah, look, I scraped myself again
How many times is this? What number?
Hey, even if I hide it
The trauma slowly surfaces
Ah, look, I swallowed it again
You're good at keeping a straight face
Well, no matter what you say
I'm mocked and covered in bruises

Swaying in a sense of closure
Dizzy in a sense of isolation
Suffocating, feeling empty

I'm a failure, they say
I'm not needed, they say
No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, it seems futile
I want to know the meaning of being born
Maybe I should just smile more naturally

God, if I could be reborn
I hope to become a child who is loved
Lull the quieted heartbeat into a lullaby
Surely, surely, tomorrow will bring a smile, right?
In a world full of mistakes
Good night