Manual do Suicídio, Pt. 2

I already lied to you about my life
Just to see if you would welcome me
So I already invented that I suffered
I started to suffer and use mirtazapine

I was already hospitalized just for this
And my friends didn't even know it
I have dead embedded in my skin
I'll send you a photo and you can check

I've already cut my face and I didn't even feel scared
I already tried to kill myself and what stopped me was this fear
The fear of leaving my father and mother in this torment
I know I'm a failure but I swear I try
I've thought about smoking again
And fill my fucking glass with cachaça
I've thought about ripping my throat out just screaming
Bro I just do the wrong thing
Is it because I've suffered from the same thing?
And I defend myself so it doesn't happen again
Or maybe I'm not ashamed of myself
And without thinking I drag everyone into the same well
So I raise a bottle of tequila
And I say a toast
For this disgrace of life
Recognize your mistakes, always change and a tip
Don't expect divine intervention
'Cause if you wait for divine intervention
Time will pass and you haven't done anything else
Go have a nose full of cocaine
All white and thinking about jumping off a balcony

You will say: How are you?
I'll say: I'm great
You will say: Are you lying?
But that's obvious
That's why I don't do sadsong, it's not because I don't even want to
My big problem is
That I take this seriously
Me when I cry
I cut myself
With broken glass
You dance and have fun
Even if you feel like crap
I try, give up, and think: Why do I live in this shit?
I have better sounds don't even waste time with this
I'm holding myself back so I don't go crazy
I've been holding back crying since the beginning of the song
But I'm already ruining it and taking her to the well
Sorry, I got lost how many times I recorded it again
I'm throwing this shit on the fan
I'm the protagonist of my own horror film
The killer is not Jason and yet I hide
Freddy will have a nightmare if he invades my dream
Because there you have written suicide manual
And as soon as he reads it he will have a great delirium
This is the reality for those who live what I live
One day I'll pick up a camera and kill myself live

Early in the morning I walk
Early in the morning I walk
Early in the morning I walk
Early in the morning I walk
Early in the morning I walk
Early in the morning I walk
Early in the morning I walk

I go
Go out tonight
I don't know, maybe I'll follow the Moon
I hope she shows me beautiful places
To have good memories while I close my eyes
And my soul disappears