Purgatório II

Honestly, I never ate sugar
Eating just once, I don't know, won't kill anyone, normal
Come to think of it, I never killed anyone
Just once? Well

I spend too much time with myself
And yet I manage to be my worst friend
It's all right, I understand that well
So why don't I understand why I live in conflict?

Almost always I'm anxious
Drugs in my blood, I apply
Old sorrows, I replicate
On my wrist an expensive watch and still not enough time for my son

Tyler, believe me, daddy had choices
But, needles were left and I needed to burst the bubbles
My heart in flames, evil calls me
I swear I tried to put love on paper from the beginning

Old notebooks with scribbles make up my shelf
I wish they were photos but I lost the moments
Bruno, you're not like everyone else
I know mom, that's why only Kant was seen

Oh, oh, father
Sometimes I just wanted a hug
Do you know how old Tyler is? Four
And about Trinity
Hard to admit, but I confess to you
Maybe I won't even see the first steps

Want to know when I feel good?
I open my drawer and see there's a zolpidem pill
I split it in half, savor it
It's bad for me
Fuck it, I also harm someone

Ah, I feel like a filthy clown
You smile while I recite a deep fuck you
If I could, I'd blow everyone up, I'd blow up the world
And yet I know you'd applaud everything

Wanting to blow everything up, that's Osama's evil
Does that make sense to you? Why does evil love us?
Wanting to be good, that's the evil of fame
Drugs, whores, guns, that's the hall of fame
Ok

Can anyone solve this shit without me?
I was never good at math
Do these problems end?
I've always been good at causing problems
Life made me this way
They've already taken my soul
What do you want? My kidney?