Suicidio

I met her shopping
And excuse the manners
Can you help me
I don't know anything special
And it's just that, at the cashier my turn was coming
And because I wasn't looking, everyone was passing me by
I said I can't find my phone murmuring
And immediately, it rang in my pocket and said exactly
The old trick I thought of so while she was paying
I took care of saving her contact
And it's not that maybe
Finding a beautiful woman in these places is rare
By coincidence, I don't surpass you
You in the Mini Cooper, me in the Lexus
And I yielded the way
After you left, I had no words to write
Looking at your photo on WhatsApp not knowing what to say
And analyzing
And changing the channels was when
I come up with what I was waiting for
So I measure it and the first thing I say when I write to her
Was excuse me for being bold
Beautiful, talking between one thing and another
I would like to invite her to Robi Rosa's concert
She answers, and in the text it is detected
That maybe, she is upset
Or maybe, it's the time she goes to bed
Or maybe, she doesn't like crooks
But after a while, she tells me
That she accepts not for me, but for Draco
At the concert, we laughed and sang
It was our first date
I will never forget how we spent time
You can imagine, such a special night
I didn't want it to end
And we went to dinner
Already drunk
But without leaving you in oblivion
Listening to your past, how much you had suffered
Already at rest, I feel doubtful
Who could harm something so beautiful
Talking and talking I don't know how or when
But between one drink and another, time flew by
And I fell in love with her heart
And she with everything I was showing her
And it's just that, I never hurt her
Incapable of deceit
My faithful friend all these years
My friend, my lover
My lady, my whole world
And slept on the right side of my bed
From anger she shouted at me, squeezed me
Without realizing that just by seeing her eyes I shone that twist
Yelling while she talks to me
And me always trying to kiss her by force
And we fought in bed, and on the floor, it was a spell
To the point that I bought her an engagement ring
Without thinking about what the ring had cost me
I put her name next to mine engraved inside
And it was all in vain, because I never thought that summer
Would come, a letter written by her own hands
Without reason, saying thank you for everything we lived
You gave me much more than I deserved
You took me much further than I had felt
And because of love, and situations of neglect
You understood things about me, that I myself haven't understood
Never alone the pen loses control
I even write remembering that day watching the waves
Feeling to have you was a relief
And your understanding of everything, is something I envy
Sometimes I think I'm wrong and so everything stays lukewarm
And for fear of failing you, I chose suicide
Talking about suicide
But I didn't understand anything
I started calling her
And she didn't answer my call
Strange feeling
My reaction at the moment
Was to get in the car
And drive to her apartment
Arriving at your house the door ajar
I enter and you're in bed, as if you were dead
I remember in school, having taken the course
But I don't remember how it was to take your pulse
Feelings of a nightmare
Empty pill bottles
And I notice, another letter on a chair
Inside the letter the scenario
It was something hereditary
Remembering your life on the calendar
The pains, the cramps, the lack of appetite
You had lupus
Cancer in the blood
Unable to escape
I did everything to live
But I was already tired
And my love I decided to die
I go back
To all the moments, and I stay
I'm not brave
And I admit that I'm afraid
Where will I go
And when you close your eyes I won't be there
I can't explain how it feels, that I won't come back
In the pocket, of the yellow booty
I found what you were hiding
And today the ring dies in my hands
And me looking, at her lifeless body
The memories that don't forget arrived
Looking for a way to think about how Jesus Christ measures
When love is real, but it's suicidal
Thoughts flying
While paramedics entered
I took the remaining pills
And here my life ended
6 years of debut and farewell
Now we will meet
Where God decides