Yo También Me Odio

Always down, I fear my fate
Another day the same, please not, I beg you
I don't want to think about it, I want to be asleep
The days are long when I'm not distracted
I act normal, but I really can't forget you
And loneliness comes to spend time with me
Suffering inside even though I smile on the outside
I have a voice inside me asking for help

And I messed up, oh
I feel the danger every time I decide something
You don't have to put up with my negativity, no
I'm not the same anymore
Nothing is the same anymore, oh
So unprotected, seeking shelter in a little affection
I could hurt you, but I never wanted to
I just want a good reason to keep living

If you hate me, I understand
I hate myself too
I think I'll die if I lose you too
I can't find solace, I want to stop suffering

If you hate me, I understand, I hate myself too

My mind doesn't rest, it's always overwhelmed
I have no hope, I no longer trust anything
I live with a constant knot in my throat and I pause while the world moves on
Days I wish I had kept my mouth shut
People I should have never trusted
Now I think nothing serves as armor
I can't enjoy thinking everything will end

And if you leave, if you also leave
I'll lose more energy and desire
It's already hard for me to get out of bed
Not being able to disconnect from this shit tires me
And I blame myself for everything that happens
A day wasted if I stay home
I don't think I'm what anyone expected
When I feel alone, I just wait for your call

If you hate me, I understand
I hate myself too
I think I'll die if I lose you too
I can't find solace, I want to stop suffering

If you hate me, I understand
I hate myself too