It's Been So Long

I don't know what I was thinking
Leaving my son alone
Now I'm cursed and I find myself blind
With this anger and sadness
They will torment me forever
I can't wait for the river to take me

Is revenge what I seek?
Or am I looking for someone to avenge me?
I want to free myself from this paradox

Maybe I should act and find it
Before they want to stop me
I will be a puppet before I can see you

a lot happened
Since I saw my son
Next to that monster
To the man behind everything

Since your farewell
I sing this fool
Song to calm you down
Sanity to your mother

I want to live in the present
With my past mistakes
But the future is cruel, it continues to torment me

Her little eyes, her smile
It's what I remember
Those memories are shaking me today

This excuse kills me
And killing is no excuse
My son, where is he? I can't understand it

Persists in my thinking
And the thought is getting bigger
I'm sorry, my baby, I was such a mess

a lot happened
Since I saw my son
Next to that monster
To the man behind everything

Since your farewell
I sing this fool
Song to calm you down
Sanity to your mother