Caffeine

I don't remember how many times I've crouched down
It's so painful that I can't remember
I've remembered the painful smell too much
The contents of my heart flowed into the drain

The night after spilling lemonade in deep red
When I close and open my eyes
You're right by my side

The bundle of unfulfilled feelings
Dropping the knob of the bathroom
Still shouting about the recent times I've been alone

Please listen to my last request
Just tell me about myself for ten seconds

I don't remember how many times I've died alone
It's so painful that I can't remember
I suffered too much from the painful smell
The lights of my heart collapsed on the pillow

In pure things like children forever smiling
I hid an incurable disease
The distortions behind that wrapped happiness

The night that was supposed to flow with lemonade in deep red
My eyes chill with a throbbing that seems to laugh at the empty me

The world that had everything crossed with 'definitely'
The reality of crying alone is not insane

Please listen to my last request, about me
It's okay to cut it open, let everyone flow the same thing

Lemonade in deep red
Spilled