Honor

Another tear falls, in honor of this beat
In honor of the being that was and will never return
In honor of friends, the fun moments
Days when I was asleep and just another controlled

I miss my peace and even though it's not here, I feel it beside me
If God exists, he has abandoned us
I lost my strength like Buddha, lost the soldier's demeanor
And I got tired of the paradigms of my past, Junior is on the side

I see him on the ground screaming: 'Help me, damn it!'
I try to look at him because I don't need him
He wants to have a common and ordinary life
But I'm sure he's lying because he's a pathological liar

For the lies, Dad, today I ask for forgiveness
For the deceptions, Mom, today I ask for forgiveness
For those mistakes, love, I ask for forgiveness
I've always been a piece of shit to you and you're absolutely right

Tell the dawn not to be so abusive
To stop hitting me, I'll give it what it asks for
Just look into my eyes, they're no longer full of life
Because their shine was the payment at every entrance and exit

If I haven't left, it's to not see you suffer
If I'm still alive, it's for the love of what I do
If I'm with you, it's because I decided so
And today I decide to stay in honor of those I love

And I love this, more than myself and my dreams
Even though this rap is the only thing I find in it
I contaminated it with shit, almost gave it a whole stamp
Just because they had me sleeping in a beautiful room

When was a good place to write necessary?
When was more than your mouth speaking necessary?
How many times do you allow a vice to express for you
The love that, sober, you're afraid to confess?

And tonight I confess with myself in this song
Tonight I confess with everyone around me
To the one who lent me a hand, I send a blessing
And to the one who hates me, may their wishes multiply

And I wish for my enemies to become millionaires
To fulfill that dream of leaving the neighborhood
To travel the world being on thousands of stages
Even though in their singing they wish me the opposite

To the woman I loved, may God guard her lips
To the being who took care of me, may he never stop being wise
I regret not helping in this precarious moment
Where my being doesn't fit even the fair and necessary

All of this is my fault, I gave to poetry
The few days of grace that my soul contained
What a empty life, although I knew
That I would give everything to this and not get it back

And another tear falls, in honor of my passion
In honor of this song and this final beat
I can't fix it even with peace, I'll lose this relationship
Where I give what's left of me and you keep asking for more

Darling, leave me alone, get out of this room
Leave me a blessing as I watch you leave
I'll leave the resentment behind, kill my ambition
I don't want a mansion, I want a living room

To be with myself and this voracious courage
That has me in Alcatraz and kills my mission
Get me out of this prison, just one kiss will be enough
Or maybe it won't calm the sorrow of my plea

Every day the mark of the mask grows larger
And the remains of the disguise that tore your heart
You're absolutely right, my being will repeat
Junior will never change because the problem is me

I'm sure everything will be fine, I just need time
Time to finally understand all the things I'm feeling now
I'm sure everything will be fine, I just need time
Time to finally understand all the things I'm feeling now
I'm sure everything will be fine, I just need time
Time to finally understand all the things I'm feeling