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I'm not okay so pour me another one
It's just another night thinking about myself
Ignoring the love of others
And hooked on everything I lost

My closest friend is loneliness
And sometimes she's not here
Sometimes it hurts to breathe
Since she's gone, it even hurts to live

I no longer have an idol to follow
I was disappointed and haven't spoken to him since
There's no longer a figure to admire
I admire myself for falling and moving on

If you ever see her, tell her that in the end
She's a reason to live
And even though she now lives with someone else
She coexists with a part of me

I hope there's a damn afterlife
I hope to see them all there
I hope to visit mom soon
I hope it's not my time to die yet

Sometimes I'm okay and sometimes I'm not
But I'm still here and I want to get out
To fly away from this reality
To one where I'm truly happy

I still have nothing, I know there's a long way to go
I'm searching for that path to happiness
I'm not lucky, but I know I fight
And I'm willing to give you everything even if there's nothing left

I still have nothing, I know there's a long way to go
I'm searching for that path to happiness
I'm not lucky, but I know I fight
And I'm willing to give you everything even if there's nothing left

The early morning hits again and brings memories of what I used to do
Long ago my ego came, I hate it for not leaving yet
If I see you with him, I'll pretend to be blind so when you see me, I won't smile
I regret the pain of that goodbye, I wanted to say 'see you later, come back to my life'

Return all my game pieces, they can't tell me they're lost
For every entrance there's an exit but leaving would be biting the bait
I'm going to pay you everything I owe, I'm going to charge you every time you look at me
I'm going to pay you for every 'I love you', I'm already in debt and the house is kicking me out

I want to be better, I'll be honest with you, willing to be everything dear life
Willing to do everything you ask of me, give me the pleasure of living you again
For now, pain, the only thing I carry and a rose that only has thorns
Hurting myself every chance I get, memories that only lead to lies

I still have nothing, I know there's a long way to go
I'm searching for that path to happiness
I'm not lucky, but I know I fight
And I'm willing to give you everything even if there's nothing left

I still have nothing, I know there's a long way to go
I'm searching for that path to happiness
I'm not lucky, but I know I fight
And I'm willing to give you everything even if there's nothing left