Flashback

I trust you
I shouldn't, I know
You are
Not the light I deserve

Every part of me
Still looks in replay
A past that I don't resemble

I swear I would hide
In the rays of the North Pole
Or in the middle of Alexandria
Right there where you couldn't
Ever find me again

Going far away from everything
From all the emptiness
To rescue my being
I look into my eyes
And hear the roar
Of those very long weekends

Under an umbrella I protect myself
It rains memories on me
Of those hellish nights
Now that winter has passed
You come back in my flashbacks

Going far away from everything
And burning the photos
In which I am with you
I look into my eyes
I feel the last thunder
Of those very long weekends

From you I have less than nothing
Only violent caresses
That point to my back
And you spin in my head
In me

Where resentment has no space
I have learned this from myself
I still feel your fists and the harm
Only in my flashbacks
Only in my flashbacks

Going far away from everything
Starting anew
And seeing another version of myself
I look at myself and love myself
The roar remains
Of those very long weekends

How many lies here in my mind
And how many promises
Slowly come back
The light suddenly fades
And you return in my flashbacks

I look at myself and love myself
The roar sounds more when you return in my flashbacks