O Vazio Dessa Noite

Two slaps in the face, I wake up
I look in the mirror and say: Go
I forget the world outside and focus not to fall
Hard days, I breathe fresh air
I try to purify my soul that isn't all that
But, used to life's punches
Not always calm
In my village everything is harder
The calluses on my hand show victory and defeat
It's expensive, the price you pay to not be just another in the crowd
I blame others for the mistakes I made in the past
Maybe I was wrong
And I may never forgive myself
I still remember sleepless nights
And anger writing: Laugh now and Cry Later
It's hard to remember and hard to forget
The things you used to control now control you
With each mistake, weaknesses become more exposed
And those who swore they loved me turned their backs
I look to the side and see nothing
A dry and colorless road
Remind me, what is love again?
All this is just a prison
There's no other option
I wanted to say no
I feel like a rat in a cage with the audience watching me run
And I'm tired in this wheel like I want to die
With a smile on my face for appearances
Scars on the soul that no one will know
Bro, the wall I built is about to collapse
I'm using frustration to sell my CD
My mind screams and the reason I've let go
Certain that this tape will never change
Because deep down I don't feel anything anymore
My soul is cold and my mind is so far away
And I just think: Stay cold, Stay cold
To survive the emptiness of this night
Sad eyes of one born with the curse
It was the only option
Day of retaliation
I looked in the mirror and saw an internal war
Holy Death protect me because demons surround me
Tightening the noose, I feel fear
Going back, in this duality fire, smoke suffocates
I gathered my mistakes in a sealed coffin
Buried seven feet deep this letter to the past
And if it falls, I won't kneel
Fighting like Chris Kyle, my shots will be accurate
This hustle is lonely, bro
Mercy and trust take a back seat
Sometimes I feel that everything I love
Has abandoned me and ceased to exist
Yeah, everything dissolves, nothing resolves
And this confusion I brought upon myself
And if destiny is relentless
I will fight to learn to resist
Yeah, I'm surviving the emptiness of this night
I'm surviving the emptiness of this night