Cabras

This is the last love letter I write to you
Or the first, if you want
And more than a letter, it's a prayer
To ask you to remember
That we met in captivity
When we slept on the floor
When the cold came through the bars
And we never opened the door

It's not your fault to love so much
Loving will never be wrong

So you remember that we met tired
With a tense back
And you had already learned to lower your weapons
Coming from an infinite tenderness
And I had the war embedded
Coming from an abyssal wound

It's not your fault, loving me so much
Loving will never be wrong

All things have their rhythm
And we were in a hurry
When you met me I already had tachycardia
And when I met you
You already felt absolutely alone

It's not our fault to love each other so much
Loving will never be wrong

I met you taking care of a sick piece of Moon
To which we held a funeral in our backyard
With a shoebox full of bougainvilleas
We dug with the back of a chair
And we realized how hard the earth is

It's not your fault to love so much
Loving will never be wrong

That's why I write to you
To remind you that we started
Like two goats in the middle of the fire
That we were always in a hurry
Because that happens when you are willing
To put your life for what you call home
And because in that house our body was so fleeting
That tomorrow we might not be here

It's not our fault to love each other so much
Loving will never be wrong

To remind you that we met threatened with death
And that at any moment someone could enter
Break the padlock
Beat us up
But we had faith

It's not your fault to love so much
Loving will never be wrong

To tell you that believing hurts
That trusting ages
That it puts you on your knees
That it makes your body lean over
And let itself fall

It's not your fault, loving me so much
Loving will never be wrong

We never had a date
We met in flight with covered faces
And you already know about me that I am a cloud
And I already know about you that you are a willow
That there will never be a good time to leave each other
Because things that break
Never exist again

It's not our fault to love each other so much
Loving will never be wrong

You taught me not to be an escapist
To observe how cats live their pain
And that one should not regret love
To tell you that I pray for you as I pray for myself
And I don't regret

It's not our fault to love each other so much
Loving you will never be wrong

I live my pain like cats
I live this disease of not seeing you sleep and I understand it
To tell you that I am preparing my own funeral
Or the funeral of this broken thing
That crashed on the road

It's not our fault to love each other so much
Loving us will never be wrong

I bury another shoebox
Even if I break my arms digging
Because I don't know how to get out of love whole
But broken
I end up like a snake, what I started as a goat