Animal (ANSIEDAD X)

Hey, dude! How's it going?
It's been a while since we talked
How are you?
Nothing new, same old stuff
Been working a lot, lately I've been sleeping poorly
But not bad
Some days it feels like everything's harder
But hey, I'm getting by
Haha

Some days just aren't my days
And they feel like an uphill battle
But that's life, it is what it is
Well, maybe those days that aren't my days
Have been happening more than usual
And even though normally they pass in the end
It's been a while since I felt like they really do pass
It's like I'm going through life waiting for something to happen
I don't know what it is, but it never really happens
It's like there's something broken inside me
That others can't see
And in the end, I fail when I try to fix it

What if it can't be fixed?
What if it's too late to start?
What if I mess up and can't go back?
What if I think I'm moving forward on a path
But there's no path and I'm just going in circles
In the same spot?
Why is it so hard to breathe?
I just want to escape

How am I supposed to escape if it's inside me?
I'm gonna explode if it doesn't go away
This pressure in my chest
If I can't stop thinking that my mind
Has turned me into something I can't control anymore
An animal
They've turned me into an animal
Spiraling intrusive thoughts
I don't even know if what I say is right or wrong

I owe karma and it's coming to collect
Card or cash, I'm not gonna pay
That light in your eyes is gonna fade
When death calls, I won't be there
Shut up!
Buckle up
There are curves every time I try to dodge the question
Because I know the answer and I don't like it
I'm stuck with dreams that never come true

In my head, a war
My mom with a serious face waits at the hospital door
The mind gives back everything that feeds it
If there's no calm in the storm
How long can you hold out without knowing how to swim?
How long can you hold out with air in your lungs
It seems like it never comes, no matter how fast you try to breathe?
When you can't sleep and you're all alone
With the ceiling and that voice that tells you
It's late, you're gonna fail
One day you die and then nothing

Where do the hours go that you've wasted?
You thought time was gold and yours is worth nothing
You're just what I could have been, wasted
You're just a tear lost in the rain
You're just a bad year, a lost month, a day of rage
They'll abandon you and find someone to replace you
If you've had and lost, it's only your fault.