Legacy

How do you want to be remembered?
Being wealthy?
Yeah, yeah, uh

Dreams of seeing myself as someone different
Reality has me feeling indifferent
I'm lifting this weight off my shoulders
But the older I get
I reload the clip and sip on something
I feel worthless
Are my glory days behind me or ahead?
I’m folding like origami
My tables turning like interior decorating
Levels like elevators
These haters got me questioning my judgment
Tried by a jury of my peers but where did the judge go?

What will my legacy be?
Who will be my enemy?
In due time as I write this rhyme I don't know
Flash before my eyes, yeah, uh

And on my deathbed what will I say as I pray?
And reminisce of another day
I came from nothing, a child born in poverty
Went to college to gain knowledge
So they would recognize me
Honestly, I got a good job
I found a woman made her my wife
But spent more time at work
So we could have a stable life
And when my son was born
I had to work even harder
Before I knew it my wife was giving birth to my daughter
Went from 40 hours a week to 80
Ain't nobody going pay me but myself
Sacrificing my time and health for wealth
I missed a birthday, missed an anniversary
There’s lots of people in this world that are worse than me

I wasn't there for my son's first words
But he didn't grow up in the hood like me, we in the suburbs
Sacrifice a couple years so he can have all the money when I'm gone
What a fool I was
I missed his graduation, I missed her wedding day
I didn't even get to give my little girl away but
I paid for the honeymoon, yeah, I paid for the honeymoon
I'm not there right now but I will be later
I'm working on something that’s greater
That’s my legacy
Uh, I'm gonna be remembered by generations to come

(Damn, you stupid)
(You won’t be remembered by your son) uh, yeah
(To be remembered by generations to come)
(You a fool)
(You won't be remembered by your son)
Nonsense, nonsense
I said to the man with no money, nonsense, uh, uh

Step back who's running from me
I don't know my own identity
I look in the mirror - look in the mirror, I ain't clearer
I’m just trying to be free, who is that, it surely ain't me
As I lay on my deathbed I realized I was wrong
I have been the richest man in the world all along
A beautiful family that all I did was ignore
For financial stability and the fear of being poor
'Cause when I was a child knew I always wanted more
When I was a child knew I always wanted more, more, more
And now I got it

And now I'm laying in this bed, cancer spreading through my lungs
Looking at my family like, Damn y'all were the ones
I sacrifice my life for 100's, 50's, 20's, 10's, 5's and 1's so dumb
I'd give it all, if I could
Do it for my heart again not my wallet
I hate to recall it but it's gone now
Legacy is gone now
Sacrifice my health for wealth no it wasn't worth it
But as I take my last breath I know that I deserved it

Daddy, daddy, daddy, daddy
The legacy you gonna leave behind you forever is the blood in your veins
Wake up, daddy, now is the time for change
And as your child I'm telling you I don't give a damn if we living on change daddy
Just as long as we livin', just as long as we livin' daddy
I just want to be happy I don't give a damn if we livin' a shoebox
Now my mama going to tell you what you got

I love you, I love you, I love you, I want you, I need you, I crave you
Why you throw away this pussy that I gave you?
Why you messing around behind my back?
While I'm home raising my children
Feel like a single mother even though a ring up on it
Supposed to be like husband and wife, you more like my opponent
Finger fucking myself because fucking fidelity
I'd rather look in the mirror be happy, who I see?
Sometimes I want to take my babies and go to my mama crib
Can I live?
Can I have a life away from my life
Be the woman that I would have been if I wasn't your wife
You know I love them but if that test wasn't positive
I would have had a lot to give
Sometimes I want to divorce your ass and take half... Motherfucker
But I stay 'cause I love these children
And I love you deep down, that's why I stick around, but
You never there because you just want to be the best
You just want to make this money
Come get this pussy motherfucker
Come get this pussy and love your children
Forget your legacy
Forget it

Float in the abyss of nothingness my consciousness remembers a life before it hits black
I wish I could get back and then I realize that all this shit is just a daydream
And there's only like four of us in a tour bus and I'm in the back, how about that?
Think about my legacy
And as how we as human beings sacrifice health for money, ain't it funny?
'Cause in the end we spent all our money on repairing our body and mind
When we really should have just spent time
Forget a legacy
I'ma go live my life
Peace