Ojalá

I need motivation, not just wanting to win
And if one day I lost my fear of losing
It hurts to have run without getting there
Now I know the journey is the goal too
Fears have grown in me that I never educated

I know the answers because I never asked
I felt like no one else when I had good
And I cried like everyone when something goes away
No one teaches you to be strong, but they force you
No one ever wanted a weak person to trust
No one teaches you the steps in a world
That forces you every day to get up and walk
Where you were so happy, you will always return
Even if you confuse pain with happiness
And you are no longer yourself, but you think of yourself
And that will kill

Hopefully they never hug you for the last time
There are so many to be with, but not who to be
We are just paths that tend to twist
Thousands of loose complexes that we must overcome

Hopefully if they accepted you for the first time
And understood that we all deserve good
That there is no person who should not have
Since we are circumstances that we never chose to be
Trust never returned with time

And the fruit of my life is not based on what I have
And if all moments could pass more slowly
If you would doubt this time in the attempt
And if we understood that if we are perfect

Despite smudges that want to stain the canvas
Everything is a sum, even if others don't think so
One thing is what I am and another is just what I show
That I no longer fear losing but giving up
That I no longer want to win but to be convinced

That long before being happy I must be with myself
That I will look at the rope to say I follow
That I will stop demanding everything I ask of myself
And I will learn to accept everything I can't achieve
That I will stop blaming myself, lying to myself
Failing myself, telling myself late truths that I need

Why did I also dedicate time to someone who no longer remembers me
I also put together the pieces of the same thing I later broke
I have not understood myself and I have understood that it will be like that
I have not been confused, I have been fused with the worst of me
I have moved to problems and I have wanted to be happy there

And I have gone in circles to not remove you from the middle
I have asked everyone to be able to define myself
How to tell a river to stop and stop flowing
No one teaches you to be strong, but they force you
No one ever wanted a weak person to trust
No one teaches you the steps in a world
That forces you every day to get up and walk
Where you were so happy, you will always return
Even if you confuse pain with happiness
And you are no longer yourself, but you think of yourself
And that will kill

Hopefully they never hug you for the last time
There are so many to be with, but not who to be
We are just paths that tend to twist
Thousands of loose complexes that we must overcome

Hopefully if they accepted you for the first time
And understood that we all deserve good
That there is no person who should not have
Since we are circumstances that we never chose to be