Asfixia

I can't find the way out
It's hard for me to breathe
It's not your fault, maybe it's mine
I don't know how to explain

That I'm desperate
I can't find my place
So long searching for you
Just to lose you again

I don't want to risk it
I have scars that I can't erase

And every time you get closer
I move away
And every time you touch me
I tense up
And every time you look at me
I weaken

And I couldn't bear to fall back into the same place as always

I promised myself I would be stronger
I promised that with you it would be different
But fear takes over me, I can't see you
My body trembles just thinking about losing myself
When I found myself a few months ago
I didn't forget you, you're still in my mind
That brings back memories that hurt me inside

And every time you get closer
I move away
And every time you touch me
I tense up
And every time you look at me
I weaken

And I couldn't bear to fall back into the same place as always
Always
Always