Solo

I remember when I was a child
With that whole world to see
Building a thousand castles
Dreaming of who I could be

I understand that nobody understands me
I've always been a bit special
Born to be a legend
Born not to be normal

Maybe I should start from the beginning
From that test that said I was a child prodigy
From that school that never believed in me
From all those no's I turned into yes

I was a weird kid even though my parents deny it
I lived my childhood locked between those walls
I always felt lonely, unable to make friends
From school to home, in that empty room

Playing with other kids was a luxury for me
I painted my friends in my drawings
Sometimes, I jumped out the window
I got lost in the forest, to not think about anything

I was an easy target, the romantic, the fool
The loser of poems, the one at the back of the classroom
The one who didn't read anything and questioned everything, the punished

I was always alone
In my room dreaming alone
Locked in my world alone
Surrounded by people but alone

Someone will cry for me if I die tomorrow
When I'm no longer here
No one can see if I'm still alone
In that room

I remember that talk
Deciding between dad and mom
That fear that overwhelms you

I felt like a burden
I went from living isolated to being in the middle of the jungle
There's a new dad at home
Who spends the week from hangover to hangover
He wants me to obey him
And the hard way he realized that force didn't work with me

A nice, diverse neighborhood
It doesn't matter the color if you learn to make a living
I was the new one, the inexperienced
Here they teach you to choose between the wallet and the neck

Laws were never the same as rules
Not in gangster movies or burying your buddies
So many stories that are now my drug
I need 10 albums to talk about them all

The years went by
And I was already part of the street and its daily tasks
But thanks to my brother
I decided to change dealing for stages

I wasn't so fragile anymore, although I seemed foolish
The one with problems but good at heart
The one who didn't say anything but was always in everything
The one who managed to move forward alone

Without your damn help always alone
Even if you don't understand me when I cry
I stopped caring about being so alone

I was always alone
In my room dreaming alone
Locked in my world alone
Surrounded by people but alone

Someone will cry for me if I die tomorrow
When I'm no longer here
No one can see if I'm still alone
In that room