Kodoku No Bannin

Mayu's 'Kodoku No Bannin' (The Guardian of Loneliness) is a haunting exploration of isolation, emotional turmoil, and the desperate yearning for love. The song opens with a vivid image of a deserted train station at 2 AM, setting a tone of solitude and abandonment. The protagonist feels left behind in a world that seems surreal and disconnected, leading to an overwhelming sense of loneliness that brings them to tears. This imagery powerfully conveys the depth of their isolation and the emotional weight they carry.

The lyrics delve into the protagonist's fear of loss and their resulting detachment from others. They blame the world for their plight, feeling suffocated by invisible chains and rejecting any offered help. This self-imposed isolation is a defense mechanism, a way to avoid the pain of potential loss. The protagonist's desire to be someone's 'number one' leads them to destructive behavior, questioning whether the simple wish to be loved is a sin. This internal conflict highlights the paradox of their situation: the more they yearn for love, the more they push it away, resulting in a painful cycle of self-sabotage.

The song also touches on themes of ego and self-centeredness. The protagonist acknowledges their selfishness and the futility of their actions, recognizing that their attempts to control their world only lead to further chaos. The repeated refrain of being the 'guardian of loneliness' underscores their role in perpetuating their own isolation. This title suggests a sense of duty or inevitability, as if they are destined to protect their solitude despite their deep-seated desire for connection. Mayu's poignant lyrics and emotive delivery make 'Kodoku No Bannin' a powerful reflection on the complexities of human emotion and the struggle between the need for love and the fear of vulnerability.