Kodoku No Bannin

At 2 AM, on an empty station platform
It felt like an otherworldly scene
I felt like I was left alone in this world
Suddenly, tears started to flow

I’m scared of losing, so I don’t connect with anyone
I lash out, blaming this world
Caught by the invisible, I can’t even breathe
I cut off the outstretched arm

I wanted to be your number one, so I broke everything
Is it a sin to just wish to be loved?
The more I wish, the more it pierces my aching heart
The lonely, annoying guardian of solitude

Just a little distance apart
I wore a forced smile, oh
From a high place, with a triumphant look
You vanished right before my eyes

The lonely sky is dark
The scenery turns a deep red, distorted
As if I can’t hear your voice
I cover my ears
I don’t need these hands, these eyes, or this heart

Wanting to be there for someone
Imposing my self-satisfying kindness
Hunting day and night is suffocating
That’s just plain selfish, right?

Since things don’t go my way, I broke everything
I’m so self-centered it makes me sick
The more I love, the more I kill my aching heart
I crave attention, but my thoughts are incomprehensible

Guardian of loneliness

I wanted to be your number one, so I broke everything
Is it a sin to just wish to be loved?
The more I wish, the more it pierces my aching heart
The lonely, annoying guardian of solitude