Que Seas Feliz

I know it was a turning point
But I want to tell you
That I haven't been able to forget you
Even though I could never call you

I couldn't reach out
When you were so far away
I had my reasons to miss you
And all that was left was to dream of you

I was left out, way out of the game
I feel defeated and so alone at home when I get back
I think about how my life would be with you
By my side, losing that fear
I have a treasure locked in my heart to give, but who do I give it to?
I refuse to lose you, and later I accept it, I contradict myself, but I know I love you

See, I'm so messed up, but I feel better knowing you're okay
I'd give anything to go back, closing my eyes it hurts again
Maybe you got bored, I don't know, but I know it's all my fault
I don't want to think about wasting my time, you wasted yours with my past self

And today I write to you, I know months have passed, but I haven't forgotten you
I want to tell you that I dream of you, replaying in my mind everything we lived
I want to fall asleep and not wake up or wake up with you
I long to have you back in my life, I wouldn't mind if we were just friends

Well, I lie to myself and to you too if you take literally what I say
I'm looking for a new start so whatever fate has in store can happen
I held onto hope and today I felt like a fool
I keep looking at your photos, even though I know it hurts me

Once again wanting to be somewhere else and I can't move on
I leave the past stuck, trapped, knowing there's no turning back
I can't stop, I want to hug you and I don't want to let go, but it's not going to happen
I'm confused about this because I know I shouldn't and I keep thinking of you

And I try and don't understand, I wonder what you're doing
It's true you've changed, I noticed when I saw you leaving
I have the silence I keep to myself and I don't intend
For you to understand me, just know: I'll love you as long as I exist

Whenever I remember all the good times, I think you do too
I filled my notebook again writing you lines
They say love makes two people capable
Of loving each other instantly and never letting time pass

Maybe I understood too late that what we had wasn't love
Or at least not mutual, the one who fell in love was just me
I could wait for you so long that my being just got hopeful
And I was hurt to find out what happened next

But I'm not like the rest, unfortunately
Others would move on, but I suffer slowly
I want to have that meeting with myself and say "enough"
I'm tired, but I've never loved anyone as much and differently

As I love you, that's why I still dream of your kisses and hugs
Thank you for being with me in joys and failures
I wish you well with him while our bond is cut
I say thank you and I hope you're happy for you and your pregnancy