Mi Manera de Pensar

This is something that can cause me trouble
I know it's pointless to talk about this stuff
And I don't want to bother anyone
But this is my way of thinking

I'm not afraid of anyone, just of myself
Certain things send me to the edge
I live in a dream and drift from reality
I don't want a shitty world, I'd rather have a mirage

If I'm like this, it's for a reason
Even if you don't care, I'm telling you now
Family, my girl, and even friends
All of them have hurt me

I like that in life, everything is reciprocal
Or do you think I'm wrong about this?
It's also true that I seem a bit crazy
That's why I barely touch on this topic

I think dialogue is the best solution
But sometimes people lose their reason
You have to think in any situation
Otherwise, with your actions, you'll break a heart

I usually feel good and keep the peace
I'm a peaceful being, until I can't take it anymore
But don't provoke me, keep it cool
I always give you what you give me

Many tell me I have no sense of humor
I don't care, 'cause I entertain myself
I laugh at my own jokes
And I don't have to suffer

My expressions are pretty hard to read
And I even seem like an insensitive person
All my actions are no longer predictable
And my heart is almost intangible to anyone

I do this so I don't get my hopes up
'Cause it's nice, but then I want to kill myself
So I'd rather not stress out
My feelings will never control me

Shy most of the time
I get sad and sometimes for no reason
I don't confess out of fear of their reactions
Apparently being good isn't enough, they want perfection

I know sometimes I'm a bit different
And I can't express what my mind feels
I block myself at times and go into absent mode
I think a lot about my future and ignore my present

I'm still a gentleman, like in the old days
Looking for a truly good lady
But if I speak to them honestly
It's hard to find that reality

I hardly get upset, what's the point?
Stressing over people who don't deserve it
I don't want to regret it and I shouldn't
When my mind gets agitated, I say hold on

Like everyone, I want to be a priority
To be looked at like I look at them
That if they're with me, they want to be there
And if not, then why the hell would I get my hopes up?

I don't find it hard to think about it
But yeah, when it comes to expressing it
That's a whole different story, 'cause I get really dumb
I hope in the future, that changes

I wouldn't want to hurt anyone
'Cause when I do, I feel like dying
I'd rather they be okay and I suffer inside
And many must think I'm an idiot

It's true I seem a bit foolish
Maybe I don't deserve all this pain
But I can't change and that's what I suffer from
I feel like I'm in a sea where I catch myself

A little jealous, but a lot of things bother me
If you're chatting with someone, that's a pain
You're with me, so wait until you're alone
Otherwise, I'll think you don't give a damn

Sending messages and photos to your buddies
And trying to make a fool out of me
For stuff like that, I get impulsive
But before I argue, I think and don't shout

Having sex is good, but love surpasses it
With love, you can overcome all tests
And if it's bad in bed, it'll get better, just wait
And if you truly love, that doesn't rush

People these days are very superficial
Good body, pretty face, and other vanities
You have to have many official girlfriends
It's hard to find special people

More than a good physique, I prefer feelings
And I'm not the only one, that's what I sense
Just like me, there must be thousands
And they're very lonely 'cause they don't notice that

I know sometimes I'm a bit different
It's complicated to express what my mind feels
I block myself at times and go into absent mode
I think a lot about my future and ignore my present

Suicide is a delicate topic for everyone
Some even consider it a sin
Cowardice, for people everywhere
But for me, it's something more complicated

I think to do it, you need a lot of courage
If they do it, it's due to a lack of understanding and love
Right at that moment, it goes from bad to worse
And you feel like even your creator abandons you

They label me as weird and antisocial
They haven't been able to know me until today
But I'm a normal guy and I thank God
For what I have and for being where I am

And this is a summary of what I usually think
Things that add up or can subtract
I can be fine and sometimes feel bad
If you have another point of view, don't forget to comment